Killing His Only Life Tether

I used to believe Robert was the man who pulled me from the wreckage of the world.

He told me he possessed a Directivea neurological interface that granted him foresight and power. He promised that in this frozen hellscape, he would be my sanctuary. He promised we would survive the Great Freeze together.

Instead, I became a prisoner. I watched as they methodically broke my limbs, and then, like a bag of refuse, they tossed me into the permafrost to be used and discarded.

As the light in my eyes began to flicker, I remembered the activation code he had once whispered in a moment of feigned intimacy. With a trembling breath, I forced the words out.

A cold, synthesized voice echoed in my mind, stripping away the final layers of my delusions.

Directive: Host, how could you trade Junes life to satisfy those monsters?

Roberts voice replied, devoid of any warmth. It was the sound of a man discussing a business transaction. Macy is too fragile for this. June... June is a fighter. Shes built to endure.

He paused, and the next words were a serrated blade across my heart. Macy is my Life-Tether. The Protocol is clear: I must ensure her survival at any cost. Once this deal is closed and the Credits are secured, Ill find a way to make it up to June.

Every agony I had sufferedevery snap of bone and sting of icehad been a calculated sacrifice. He hadn't failed to protect me. He had orchestrated my destruction.

As the stench of a starving, infected hound filled my nostrils, I finally stopped fighting. I let go.

This ones a statue. Not a single scream.

A jagged shard of ice was driven through my palm. My body jerked, a white-hot flare of agony pulling me back from the brink of unconsciousness. My eyes drifted open, unfocused and heavy, and thats when I heard Roberts voice again through the thin walls of the basement.

How much longer?

The synthesized voice of the Directive sounded almost human, its tone wavering with something like mechanical grief. Three hours. But Host... her limbs are shattered. She has twelve puncture wounds. They used a brand on her tongue. Should we not... intervene?

No, Robert snapped, his voice brittle. The agreement was twenty-four hours. Not a minute less.

I felt a ghost of a smile touch my cracked lips. I closed my eyes again.

It was the seventh year of the Permafrost. I was the one who had cracked the code, the one who had synthesized the vaccine that could finally grant humanity immunity to the Necro-virus. When I had ventured out to find the final chemical reagents, Robert had insisted on being my lead guard. He said he couldn't bear to let me out of his sight.

I thought it was love. I thought he was risking his life for mine.

Now I knew the truth. He had struck a deal with the Insurgents long before we left the Bastion.

A searing heat pressed against my chest. The sizzle of my own flesh and the cloying, metallic scent of burnt skin filled the cramped basement. The scream I had been holding back finally tore through my throat, raw and jagged. The men surrounding me erupted into a chorus of guttural laughter.

I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to retreat into the only place they couldn't touch: my memories.

Robert and I had been childhood sweethearts. After we married, in the quiet, desperate nights of the apocalypse, he would hold me and whisper about the future. He wanted a family. A real home. He didn't want to be alone in the dark anymore.

For that dream, I survived everything. I scavenged through ruins, I fought off the infected with nothing but a rusted pipe, I starved so he could eat. And finally, I had succeeded. I was carrying our child.

But now, I wasn't even a person anymore. And my child was already a cold, still weight inside me.

Host, theyre bringing in the hounds! June cant take anymore. Shes losing too much blood, and the fetal heartbeat is

Shut up! Roberts voice was frayed, irritable.

For a heartbeat, a foolish, dying spark of hope flickered in my chest. I thought he might remember our years together. I thought he might remember the way I looked at him on our wedding day.

Then, he pushed me into the abyss.

Shes tough, he said, cold as the wind outside. She wont die.

Even the Directive seemed horrified. Robert, look at yourself. She is your wife, not your enemy. Why must she endure this for your gain?

Because she is my wife! Robert roared, his voice thick with a twisted sense of martyrdom. In the life before this one, Macy died saving us. My 'Rebirth' was paid for with Macys blood. If she dies, the Directive shuts down, and I die with her. Just a little longer. Once the main forces arrive, Ill go in and 'rescue' her. Shell understand.

I had thought the Insurgents kidnapped me for the vaccine. I was wrong.

Everythingthe blood, the pain, the loss of my childit was all for Macy. The "Guardian Angel" he claimed had traded her life for his second chance.

That was why he was always there for her. Why he used his position in the Bastion to shield her from every hardship while I worked myself to the bone in the labs. We had fought about it, of course.

Every time, Robert would pull me close, his breath warm against my ear, and say, June, youre the one I love. Macy... shes just a debt I have to pay. Its a responsibility, nothing more.

And every time, I had backed down. I had chosen to believe him because the alternative was too terrifying to face.

But he hadn't just chosen her. He had sentenced me to death.

As the three infected hounds were dragged into the room, their eyes milky and their jaws snapping, I closed my eyes and waited for the end.

I dont know how much time passed before the sound of Roberts sobbing pulled me back.

His eyes were bloodshot, his face a mask of performative grief. Im so sorry, he choked out, his voice trembling. Its all my fault. I didn't get here in time.

The smell of himthe expensive soap from the Bastions private storesmade my stomach churn. I stared at him, my gaze fixed on his throat, imagining my handsmy broken, useless handstearing the life from him.

I bit into the inside of my cheek, using the sharp sting of pain to find my voice. Why... why were you so late, Robert?

He flinched, his eyes darting away from mine. There was a complication with the perimeter. I failed you, June. I let those animals get to you.

He leaned in, his voice dropping to a theatrical whisper. But listen to me. It doesn't matter what they did. I still love you. Im going to make you whole again. I promise.

He wrapped me in a heavy, fur-lined coat and carried me to a temporary camp. My colleagues, hardened by the world, turned pale when they saw me. I had over a hundred wounds, some shallow, some deep and weeping. We lacked proper medical supplies; they had to use primitive cauterization just to stop the bleeding.

I spiraled back into the darkness.

When I woke again, Robert was clutching my hand, weeping silently. Those monsters... June, I swear, I will protect you. Ill never let anyone hurt you again.

I closed my eyes, refusing to look at him. Every word out of his mouth felt like another shard of ice driven into my skin.

A moment later, the door to the medical tent swung open. A silhouette I loathed stepped into the light.

Robbie? Why are you still in here?

Macy was dressed in a pristine white parka, a pink ribbon tied neatly in her hair. She looked like a creature from another worlda world that hadn't seen blood or hunger. She skipped toward him, then let out a sharp, theatrical gasp when she saw me.

Oh! June! You look... oh, thats terrifying!

She immediately buried her face in Roberts chest, trembling. Robbie, Im sorry, I didn't mean to be rude, Im just... Im so shaken. You aren't mad at me, are you?

I watched as Robert smoothed her hair, his touch infinitely more tender than it had been with me. Its okay, Macy. Youre sensitive. I know.

I wanted to laugh. I was the one who had been mutilated, yet she was the one who needed comforting.

Robert claimed he only felt "duty" toward her. But he gave me logic and excuses, while he gave her everything she asked for. The distinction was finally, brutally clear.

Robert eventually left to "coordinate the transport," leaving me alone with Macy.

She sat on the edge of the cot, leaning in close. She sniffed the air and immediately made a face of pure disgust. You smell like rot. Look at you. You aren't even a woman anymore. Youre barely a person. Why are you still hanging on?

She smiled, a cold, sharp expression that never reached her eyes. If I were you, Id find a way to end it. Youre just an eyesore now.

I forced a dry, rasping laugh. If Im an eyesore to you... then staying alive is worth it.

I knew she wanted him. But even in this ruined world, our marriage was recognized by the Bastions Council. As long as I was his wife, she was nothing but a shadow.

Macys face twisted into something demonic. She reached out and pressed her thumb directly into one of my open wounds. I gasped, my vision swimming.

Do you know what Robbie says about you behind closed doors? she hissed. He says youre pathetic. He says hes disgusted that you wont just die and let him move on. As the woman who actually loves him, I think its time I helped him out.

She pulled a small syringe from her pocket, filled with a pale yellow fluid. My heart hammered against my ribs. What is that?

Youve been exposed to the Necro-virus, she whispered. A couple of vaccine shots would fix you right up, but honestly? Its such a waste to use the good stuff on a lost cause like you.

She leaned in closer, her breath smelling of peppermint. This is a Thermal-Toxin. Robbie was worried youd be too cold out here in the snow, so he asked me to give you a little 'warmth.' Itll make your exit very... memorable. And once youre gone, Ill be the one who 'discovered' the vaccine. Ill be the hero. And youll just be a tragic memory.

I couldn't breathe. Seven years of my lifeseven years of sleepless nights and frozen fingers in the laband they were going to steal it all. They were going to kill me with the very thing I had died a thousand deaths to create.

I had already been infected by the hounds. Without the second stage of the vaccine, I would turn. But the Thermal-Toxin... for someone already fighting the virus, it was a recipe for a slow, agonizing internal combustion of the nervous system.

You... wouldn't... I gasped.

I tried to struggle, but she shoved me off the cot. My broken bones shrieked in protest as I hit the floor.

Look at you, she sneered. You think you can compete with me? Im going to have the world at my feet. Im going to have Robbies children. And you? Youre going to burn from the inside out in the dirt.

She plunged the needle into my neck and emptied the syringe.

I blacked out from the sheer shock of the chemical burn.

When I woke, the world was a haze of fire. Every nerve ending felt like it was being scorched by a blowtorch. I screamed for Robert, but the camp was empty. A lone colleague remained, looking at me with pity and terror.

Theyre gone, June. They took the last transport. They said you were too far gone to move.

My mind went blank. The vaccine... did they leave the vaccine?

They took it all back to the Bastion for the 'official launch.'

I begged him. I pleaded until my voice broke. Finally, the colleague, a man named Sam, put on his hazmat suit and helped me into an old rover. We chased the transport through a blizzard for two days.

When we finally caught up to them at the secondary airfield, I didn't care about pride. I didn't care about the betrayal. I just wanted to live. I crawled through the snow, dragging my broken body toward Robert as he stood by the helicopter.

Robert! Please! I shrieked. Just one dose! Im turning! Please!

Robert looked down at me, and I saw only irritation and embarrassment in his eyes. June, for Gods sake. This shipment belongs to the future of humanity. Not a single drop can be wasted on a personal whim. I have a mission to protect Macy and the serum. Stop being so dramatic.

The other scientists stood frozen. Sam yelled out, Shes infected, Robert! If she doesn't get the shot, shell turn in hours! Shes your wife!

Robert let out a sharp, dismissive scoff. I know youre jealous of Macy, June, but this is pathetic. Macy already gave you the booster shot back at the camp. Stop lying to get attention. I don't have time for your theatrics.

He turned his back on me. The helicopter blades began to roar, kicking up a blinding cloud of snow.

I lunged forward, grabbing at his boot. Robert, Ill go! Ill leave! I wont ever see you again! Just give me the shot! I want to live!

He didn't even look back. He just kicked my hand away, his face contorted in anger. Enough! Ill send a retrieval team once Ive secured the Bastion. Just wait your turn!

He climbed into the cabin and pulled Macy in beside him. She looked down at me through the glass, a radiant, triumphant smile on her face.

The helicopter rose into the gray sky.

I slumped into the snow. The rage inside me surged, and I coughed up a spray of thick, black blood.

Oh god, Sam whispered, backing away. The transition... its starting.

He wanted to help, but the fear of the virus was too great. I didn't blame him. I didn't want to live through the transformationto become a mindless, shuffling corpse.

Sam, I wheezed. Give me your sidearm.

He hesitated, then placed the heavy pistol in my mangled hand.

I handed him a small data drive and a blood-stained journal I had kept hidden in my coat. When Im gone... give this to the Council. Not Robert. The Council.

As I pressed the barrel to my temple, a strange, calm clarity washed over me.

At that exact moment, miles away in the air, a digital chime echoed in Roberts mind.

Warning: Life-Tether terminated. Host lifespan: Final Countdown initiated.