He Pretended to Die With Our Son

Five years ago, a car crash killed my husband Matt and our one-year-old son Phillip. It left me with endless grief and a $300,000 debt to a loan shark. To repay it, I worked day and night. I hauled concrete, delivered food, and drove for a rideshare service, sleeping just three hours a day. My best friend Jessica told me, "The debt died with them. You're killing yourself for nothing." But I couldn't bear the thought of Matt's name being cursed.

On this year's anniversary, loan sharks found me at the cemetery. They wrecked the offerings and stole everything except one small paper gold ingot. That night, overwhelmed, I posted online: "Matt, I'm so tired. Why won't you and Phillip visit me in my dreams?"

Soon, a notification arrived from an account with a cartoon star as its avatar: "Who are you? Why are you posting pictures of me and my dad?" Phillip's nickname had been "my little star."

Trembling, I opened the profile. The background photo showed a family: a father, a mother, and a son. The man was unmistakably Matt. The woman beside him was Jessica.

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I was frozen, my fingers shaking as I typed out a reply.

"That's my dead husband and son. Who are you?"

Just as I was about to hit send, the comment vanished. The account with the star avatar was suddenly set to private.

A cold dread washed over me. Jessica had gotten married five years ago, right around the time Matt and Phillip had "died." She'd said it was a quiet affair, a high-society arranged marriage that had to be kept out of the papers. Lost in my own grief, I hadn't questioned it.

I glanced at the clock. An idea sparked. I grabbed my keys and drove toward the most exclusive private elementary school in the city.

My mind raced. Right after we found out I was pregnant, Matt had bought an apartment in this school district, paying in cash. Hed also made a two-hundred-thousand-dollar donation to the school for a new library. "Our son will have the absolute best education," he had sworn.

School wasn't out yet. The security guard at the gate stopped me. "Can I help you?"

I hesitated, a bitter taste in my mouth. "I'm here to pick up Phillip Pierce."

The guard eyed me suspiciously. "I know Phillip's parents. I've never seen you before."

Another parent waiting nearby chimed in. "She's probably the new nanny. Mrs. Pierce is far too glamorous to be doing school runs herself."

"That's true," another parent agreed. "They're such a lovely couple. They always pick him up together. I wonder why they sent the nanny today."

I looked down at my faded blouse and worn-out jeans, a familiar wave of shame washing over me. Before I could respond, the final bell rang.

A few minutes later, a black Maybach purred to a stop at the curb.

Even though I had prepared myself, the man who stepped out of the driver's seat made my vision swim. My whole body started to shake uncontrollably.

It was Matt. Alive.

He opened the passenger door, took Jessica's designer handbag, and then took her hand, leading her toward the gate.

I ducked behind a large oak tree, listening to the other parents greet them.

"Mr. and Mrs. Pierce! Here for your boy!"

"Phillip is such a wonderful child! Top of his class! I wish my kids were half as brilliant."

"Well, look at his parents! With a loving home like that, of course he's going to be a star!"

I clamped a hand over my mouth, my nails digging into my palm so hard I thought I might draw blood. I couldn't believe this was real. After he died, I had prayed every single night just to see his face one more time in a dream. Now, seeing him here in the flesh, all I wanted was for this nightmare to end.

A flood of children poured out of the school. A boy, about six or seven, came bounding out and leaped into Matt's arms.

"Mommy! Daddy! I got a hundred on my test again!"

When he turned his head, I saw the small, distinct birthmark behind his ear. A choked sob escaped my lips, and tears streamed down my face.

It was Phillip. My Phillip. The son who was supposed to have died in that car crash with his father.

And now, my sonthe baby I carried and birthedwas calling my best friend "Mommy."

The sight squeezed the air from my lungs. The pain was a physical force, threatening to tear me apart.

I stepped out from behind the tree.

I met Matt and Jessica's wide, shocked eyes and said, in a voice I barely recognized as my own, "Long time no see."

2.

Matts brow furrowed, but he didn't speak. He hadn't changed a bit in five years, yet the way he looked at melike I was a complete strangerwas a world away from the love he once held in his eyes.

Jessica snapped out of her shock first, rushing forward to grab my hand, her voice a desperate whisper. "Catherine, let's go somewhere and talk. It's not what you think..."

Looking at her, at the woman I once considered my sister, filled me with a sickening revulsion.

I ripped my hand away and slapped her hard across the face.

"I gave you everything, Jess. I treated you like a sister. And you stole my husband. You stole my son. How could you?" My voice rose, shaking with fury. I turned my glare on Matt. "And you! Was it fun? Watching me suffer for five years while you played house?"

Matt's face hardened, and he stepped in front of Jessica, shielding her. "If you have a problem, take it up with me. This has nothing to do with her."

The sight of him protecting her sent a fresh wave of rage and heartbreak through me, and my vision blurred with tears.

Jessica and I had been inseparable since childhood. Her home was a nightmarean alcoholic mother, a gambling father. They beat her. I was always dragging her over to my house for dinner, for homework, for safety. One time, when her father was about to hit her with a belt, I jumped in front of her. I woke up in the hospital to her crying, her eyes swollen shut. "You saved my life, Catherine," she'd sobbed. "You'll always be my best friend."

And now, that same best friend had stolen my entire world.

My shouting had attracted a crowd of onlookers. Matt frowned, reaching for me. "This isn't the place for this. Let's go somewhere else to talk."

My throat was raw. I was about to refuse when a small body slammed into me, pushing me back.

"You're a monster! Don't you hurt my mommy!"

Phillip stood before me, his little face contorted in rage, looking at me like I was a wild animal. "Say you're sorry! Or I'll hit you!"

I stared at the son I had endured so much to bring into this world, my heart aching with a bitter sorrow. Five years ago, when he was just a toddler, he was already my little protector. I remember cutting my finger on a broken glass, and he had toddled over, taking my hand in his tiny ones, whispering, "Don't cry, Mommy. Phillip will kiss it better." Matt had gently scolded me for being clumsy as he bandaged my finger.

In that moment, I had felt like the luckiest woman alive.

Now, my husband was alive and with my best friend. My son was defending her against me.

The crowd went silent. Matt was the first to speak.

"Catherine, I'm sorry," he said, his voice cold and detached. "I fell in love with Jessica. The truth is, you and I... we grew too far apart. We have nothing in common anymore."

"My company needs the connections and support Jessica can provide. And Phillip needs a mother with an Ivy League education like Jess."

"I know you've had a hard five years. Name your price. I'll compensate you."

His words were a knife, twisting in my gut. I let out a hollow laugh. "You're not afraid of karma, are you, Matt?"

I first met him in middle school. My father sponsored his education. He was a brilliant orphan who tutored me in his spare time. When my father's business went bankrupt and he was sent to prison my senior year, my world shattered. Matt offered to drop out of school to repay our family's kindness.

I refused. "You're destined for the Ivy League," I told him. "I'm a lost cause anyway. You go. I'll take care of my mother. I'll support you."

I worked three jobs to pay his tuition. When I handed him the money for his first semester, he traced the calluses on my fingers, his eyes full of pain. "Catherine," he promised, "the day I graduate, we'll get married. I'll take care of you forever."

He was offered a spot in a PhD program. He wanted to turn it down, but I wouldn't let him. "My father's dream was to see you succeed. Go. I'll wait for you."

So I worked even harder.

After he graduated, he started a company with some classmates. It grew, and he grew more distant. I, with my high school diploma, couldn't keep up with his talk of venture capital and market shares. He had no interest in the price of groceries. But he always defended me. "Catherine paved the way for my success with her own sacrifice," he'd say. "I'll be grateful to her for the rest of my life."

When the news of the "car crash" came, the loan sharks showed up. That's when I found out he'd borrowed a fortune to start his business. The weight of it all nearly broke me. I wanted to die. But I pulled through, determined to pay back every cent so he could rest in peace with his name cleared.

For five years, I worked in construction, washed dishes, delivered food, and drove a taxi. I slept three hours a night. I paid it all back.

And it was all a joke.