Watch Me Jump To Be Free

The day Madison found out she was pregnant, she nearly broke my ribs with how hard she hugged me. Her eyes were rimmed with a fierce, watery red.

Miles, she whispered, her voice thick with a solemn promise. Im going to do this right. Im going to bring our baby into this world and give them everything.

To everyone we knew, Madison Miller worshipped the ground I walked on. They called her a "husband-spoiler," the kind of woman who treated her partner like a prize.

That lasted until I saw the video.

It was an intimate, lingering clip followed by a string of photos, sent from her first love.

I watched her for a moment. She was standing in the middle of the half-finished nursery, adjusting the rails of the crib wed picked out together. I walked up to her, my voice unnervingly steady.

"Dont have the baby, Madison."

I felt her entire body go rigid, the air in the room suddenly turning cold.

"Madison," I added, the words tasting like ash. "I want a divorce."

The wooden rattle Madison had been holding slipped from her fingers, thudding softly against the plush nursery rug. She looked up at me, her face a mask of pure bewilderment.

"Miles?"

She stepped toward me, reaching out to catch my hand.

"Is this a joke? Because its not funny."

She looked so earnest, so genuinely pained, that for a second, I almost believed I was the center of her universe. I could feel her hand trembling against mine.

"Miles, stop it. Youre being dramatic."

She thought I was throwing a tantrum. I felt a hollow, bitter chill settle in my chest.

"Im not joking." I pulled my hand back, a dull ache throbbing behind my eyes. "Im dead serious."

"Madison," I said, my voice rising just enough to tremble. "You told him you wanted to give him a baby. You told him that if it was a boy, youd name him Beckham, and if it was a girl, shed be Becca..."

I was trying to stay calm. I really was. I wanted a clean break. I wanted us to end things with the same grace wed supposedly lived by.

But looking at her face, all I could think about was the night we conceived. How shed curled into me, flushed and breathless, looking at me with those same expectant eyes and saying, Miles, if we have kids, I want one of each. A boy named Beckham and a girl named Becca.

Id asked her why those names. Shed just smiled and said she liked the rhythm of them. I hadn't pushed. I thought they were beautiful.

Now, the irony felt like a physical weight, crushing the air out of my lungs.

"It wasn't because you liked the rhythm, Madison," I said, my teeth chattering as a chill took over my entire frame. "Its because his name is Beckett."

"The one who got away. The one youve been pining for since you were nineteen."

"Its not what you think!" Madisons eyes welled up instantly, her voice desperate.

"Then what is it?" I screamed, the dam finally breaking. "If you love him so much, just tell me! I would have let you go! Do you think Im the kind of man who begs to stay where he isn't wanted?"

I grabbed a stuffed animal from the crib and hurled it at her. It hit her shoulder and fell, but she didn't flinch. Instead, she lunged forward and wrapped her arms around me, squeezing so hard I could barely breathe.

"No! No, Miles!" she sobbed into my chest. "Im sorry. I messed up. I know I messed up, but please"

I wanted the divorce. I wanted to walk away with a shred of dignity.

But Madison didn't let it happen. Instead, she called in the reinforcements.

By that evening, our spacious living room was packed. Both of our families were there, sitting in a semi-circle like a tribunal, staring at me as if I were the one who had committed a felony.

Madisons aunt leaned back, eyeing me with naked contempt. "Youve got quite the nerve for a guy who lives on his wifes paycheck," she sneered. "Madison works her tail off every day to provide for you and that baby. Youre sitting here in a house she bought, acting like a child."

Madisons mother reached over and squeezed my hand, her voice a poisonous blend of sympathy and manipulation. "Miles, honey, Madison isn't the type to cheat. Why would she have married you if she didn't love you? Shes devoted to you. She wouldn't have asked us all here if she wasn't desperate to save this marriage."

She looked at my mother, who nodded sharply. "Miles! Stop this nonsense right now!" my mother snapped. "You wont find another woman like Madison. Shes stable, shes loyal, shes a provider. What more do you want?"

My father didn't even look at me. He just stared at the floor, his voice gruff and final. "Forget about the divorce. If Madison says she wants to stay, you stay. If I hear you bring this up again, Ill personally make sure you regret it."

I sat there, surrounded by the people who were supposed to love me, being torn apart by a pack of wolves while the woman who had betrayed me sat quietly at the center of it all.

Finally, Madison spoke.

"Miles, I never wanted to lose you." She took my hand in front of everyone. "I can explain everything. Ill show you."

To prove her "sincerity," she pulled out her phone and called Beckett on speakerphone. She demanded he tell me the truththat they were "just friends," that nothing happened.

"My husband is trying to divorce me because of you!" she shouted into the phone. "Tell him the truth, Beckett!"

On the other end, Beckett let out a bored, sharp laugh. "I was just messing with him, Maddie. Is he really that sensitive? What a head case."

Then his voice shifted, turning cruel as he addressed me directly. "Look, man, I dated her for years. Everyone has a past. You expect her to be a blank slate? You think youre so clean?"

The room went silent. I felt the pressure in my chest reach a breaking point. After hours of being bombarded by my parents and hers, after watching Madison play the victim, I snapped. I lunged for the phone.

I was going to tell him exactly what I thought of him. I was going to end this.

Slap.

The sound echoed through the room. My head snapped to the side, my cheek stinging with a heat that radiated down to my jaw.

I looked at Madison, stunned. She was trembling, her hand still raised, her face a mask of panic. "Miles, I... I didn't mean to"

"Hah! Did she just hit you, Miles?" Becketts voice crackled through the phone, laughing. "Im telling you, man, Madison is my dog. She does what I want. She gives me the confidence to say this to your faceyoure nothing."

"Go ahead," Beckett challenged. "Tell your wife to come over and give me what I deserve. Oh wait, she already does that in bed"

"Enough!" I roared.

But Beckett wasn't done. A moment later, a text came through. It was a photo of our living room. My living room.

"I like the way the place looks, Miles," hed messaged me earlier that day. "Its exactly what I asked for."

I froze. Becketts voice came through the phone again, smug and oily. "Did Madison let you help with the decor? Probably not. Because I told her years ago that if we ever got a place, I wanted the Hamptons-chic look. The navy accents, the crown molding. Its all for me."

He then sent a photo of Madison as a teenager, glowing with happiness, holding a specific pair of his-and-hers keychains. I looked at the bowl by our front door. The same keychains were sitting there.

"She made those for me," Beckett said. "And she kept them for you."

I looked at Madison. She was crying now, reaching out for me with a hand that had just struck me. It was pathetic. It was nauseating.

"What are you even pretending for, Madison?" I whispered. "If you love him this much, why did you ruin my life?"

I turned to my parents, to the aunts and uncles who had gone silent.

"Are you still going to tell me I cant leave?" I asked, my voice cracking. "Are you blind? Cant you see? I don't exist in this house. Im just a placeholder for a man she actually wants."

The tears started then, hot and uncontrollable. I couldn't stop them no matter how hard I rubbed my eyes. I was breaking down, right there in the center of the room.

Madison dropped to her knees. She grabbed my legs, sobbing. "Miles, please. Hit me. Just hit me back! Do whatever you want, just don't leave me!"

She was wailing, a sound of pure, selfish desperation. "I love you! I wont let you go!"

I thought it couldn't get any worse. But as she knelt there, my mother-in-law stepped forward and slapped me again.

"How dare you humiliate my daughter!" she screamed. "Shes been nothing but good to you!"

Madisons aunt grabbed my hair, yanking my head back. "Youre a parasite! Youre a curse on this family! Men like you should just crawl into a hole and die!"

I was being pulled, scratched, and screamed at. My scalp burned, my face throbbed, and my soul was being crushed under the weight of a dozen people telling me I was the villain for being betrayed.

My own mother was crying. "Miles, every woman makes mistakes! No one stays with just one person forever. Don't be so arrogant!"

"A divorced man is damaged goods," she sobbed. "Whos going to want you after this? Youll be alone forever!"

My father stepped into my line of sight, his face purple with rage. "No one in this family gets a divorce. I wont have the Miller name dragged through the mud because you cant handle a little drama. You want to leave? Fine. Go die then. Itd be less of an embarrassment."

Their words were Madisons shield. She crawled back to me, wrapping her arms around my waist. "Miles, Ill block him. Ill never speak to him again. I promise! We have a baby coming! Please, forgive me!"

The noise was deafening. The screaming, the crying, the accusations. It was a suffocating wall of sound, stealing the oxygen from the room. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't think.

"Why?" I screamed, a raw, primal sound that tore through my throat. "Why me?"

The night ended in chaos. The stress was too much; my heart skipped, then hammered, then felt like it was being gripped by a frozen hand. I collapsed.

I spent a week in the hospital. Madison was nowhere to be found, but Becketts social media was a goldmine.

There was Madison, helping him pick out furniture for his new "bachelor pad."

There was Madison, laughing as they cooked a steak dinner together.

There was Madison, smiling in a flower-arranging class, holding a bouquet that matched the one from a photo of them ten years ago.

Beckett had posted a side-by-side: a grainy photo of them as teens and a high-def shot of them now. The caption read: True love always finds its way back home.

Madison had liked the post.

The doctor stood by my bed, looking at my chart. "Mr. West, your heart attack was stress-induced. You need to keep your emotions stable. I suggest a change of scenery. Get away for a while."

My phone buzzed. A text from my mother: Madison bought your brother that new iPhone he wanted. It was over a thousand dollars. How can you say she doesn't love you? Shes so good to this family. Stop being difficult and come home.

Then a message from Madisons mother: I talked to a psychic. She says its a boy. Stop this nonsense. Youre our only son-in-law.

Finally, a text from Madison herself: Hey baby, Ill be back tonight. I cut my business trip short. I miss you.

My parents indifference. Her familys pressure. And Madisons clumsy, transparent lies. She thought that because shed deleted Becketts number in front of me, I wouldn't know she was still with him. She thought I was a fool.

Miles, what do you want for dinner? she texted. Ill bring it to the hospital.

At the same time, a DM from Beckett: Maddie says shes tired of taking care of a sick dog. Shell wait until the baby is born, then shes kicking you to the curb. Enjoy being the nanny for my kid.

That was it. The last straw.

I looked at the screen until my vision blurred. A sad, jagged laugh escaped my lips. I typed back to Madison:

[Madison.]

[I want those soup dumplings from the place you took me on our first date.]

Id never been in love before her. Id never been cherished. My parents love was like sandit always slipped through my fingers.

But that day, years ago, watching her blow on the hot dumplings, pushing the best ones toward me with a goofy grin... I thought Id finally found a home. I thought I was enough.

I waited until midnight. Madison never showed up.

Instead, I got a text from Beckett: Give us thirty minutes. Were almost finished. Then Ill let her go.

My heart felt numb. The pain had moved past hurting; it was just a cold, dead weight now. I walked up to the hospital roof. I sat on the ledge, dangling my feet over the edge, watching the parking lot.

A familiar black Audi pulled in.

I dialed Madisons number. I watched her step out of the car, looking panicked, rushing toward the hospital entrance while pressing the phone to her ear.

"Miles? I'm almost there, I'm so sorry, the traffic"

"Madison," I said, my voice eerily calm.

"Look up."

The wind whipped around my ears. Madison paused, her head tilting back. She saw mea thin, fragile silhouette against the night sky, looking like I could be blown away by a stiff breeze.

Her heart must have stopped. I heard her scream through the phone, a raw, guttural sound.

"NO! Miles, don't!"

She sprinted for the doors, but she was too late.

The sound of the impact was like a crack of thunder, shattering whatever was left of her soul.